This is my FAVORITE Time of year. What I call the Holiday Season (October 31st-February 14th) is here. The past few days I've been so nervous. Would I get to enjoy it this year, because last year....I was miserable the entire time. Yes, I dressed up as the Old School TV Joker, but that was more because Grace wanted to be Harley Quinn and wanted us to go together like that. Last year I was fighting me, and losing. I wasn't diagnosed until February 15th, what I now refer to as my new birthday. (This day use to be Happy Pitchers and Catchers Report Day in case you were wondering)
All week I've worried I won't be happy, I'll sink back into that funk, but I didn't. I've smiled more in the last 24 hours than I knew was possible. I'm physically exhausted with all the stuff going on in my life, and at night I just basically collapse, but there is joy, and I can't stress how good it feels. So for the next 3 1/2 months, I'm going to be happy as can be, post stupid stuff, and some may find me down right looney. I love Valentine's Day, always have, because it's the hope of love. The New Year brings the hope of a second chance. Christmas is family and love. Thanksgiving is a chance to reflect on all the blessings we have received. And Halloween, it's an excuse to dress up and just be a little zany...and don't we need zany...
I know some get depressed this time of year because of all they've lost, and I feel for them. But I also know this life is too short, and I can't do last year ever again, because I only get so many. So smile, we're all gonna end up in the same place some day, so let's enjoy the ride, let's be kind to each other and have some joy in our life. Happy Holiday Season everyone! Now if you'll excuse me, I have some zombie chair dancing to Thriller to do!
